misery :'(

i don't know why, don't know how, i've been feeling miserable these past few days.. have you ever feel like sick of feeling so desperate with something more before your life is over, feel so sick of everyone around with the big fake smiles and stupid lies while deep inside you're bleeding? feel like somehow you just don't belong, so.. you wanna run away and no one understand you, you stuck inside a world that you hate? have you?

people might think i'm happy but actually i'm totally NOT.. i'm just thinking what should i do to make everything right.. figuring what to do.. but.. i really don't know what should i do.. 
i just wanna go home right now.. even there's nothing to do when i got there, but it does feel good to be home.. to be surrounded by people that we love so much, right?